- Sep 17, 2004
- Fulltime Student & Sexual Health Educator
I recently just had a birthday and every year around this time I get really really sad. About 3 , almost 4 years ago, I lost my identical twim sister in a car accident. At one point in my life, I thought it was all over..actually I wanted it to be over. I felt as tho God brought me into this world with someone and why did things end up as they did.. I lost a part of my heart, my soul, my other half. and it was extremely hard. Now I'm sitting here on a friday night..just thinking to myself..What if this and What if that.. I sing and I write, so over the past few years those have been my escape. I have a demo out and singing is my passion. When I go into a recording studio I enter into my own world.. just me myself and I.. I let everything out.. and just let it flow. Sometimes i just sit and think on my dear sister. I know that she lives through me and I try to live my life the way she would want me to. The scariest thing in the world is to look into a casket at someone and look exactly like you.. and to be so young.. I've learned an extremely lot from her and from this experience despite how cliche this may sound 'life is short'.. we have no choise but 'to live life to its fullest'..take it from me.. The next moment may be your last. Losing a loved one, especailly a twin is a real eye opener. I realized sooo many things.. I grew as a person.. and hopefully my sister is smiling down on me. I"ll soon be attending college.. I just got a new car.. My job is great and I'm loving life right now. Altho I wish she was here w/ me.. I truley know deep down inside she lives in me,around me and through me.