- Jan 20, 2015
No, I did not pick him, he picked me as his beard. He was functional drug addict. My job was to make him appear like a functional family man. Which was only possible because I didn't know he was an addict and very little about drugs.Yes Sister ... that is his Father ... and i hate to say this ... but you picked him.
If he has not lived up to your expectations (or any reasonable person's) ... there were probably signs prior to the conception of the child. I remember when i was fretting about my ex to my Mother, she said, "You had to have seen some of this before now." ... and the fact is, we usually do, but are willing to write off some isms for the sake of love and stuff ... especially when we're young. Unfortunately though, those things we look past often end up manifesting themselves in the worst of ways later on down the road.
I would not hold this against him. He ultimately did the right thing, and that is key. I would thank him instead (considering what the outcome might have been, if he did not act as responsibly as he did).
My Son useta have asthma attacks as a young child and anything could trigger it, much like allergies. I remember we were headed to the yearly state fair and just getting out of the car, preparing to pay to go in, and he said ... "Momma I can't breath." ... Gurl ... I only lived a few blocks from the fairground and did not know whether to race to the emergency room (which was further away) or just go home and let him do a breathing treatment. I was so panicked. Begging him to just hold on and let me get us home. We never made it to the fair. In fact, that was probably the end of our "Family Days at the Fair" ... there's only so much I can take.
In those moments, it's hard to know what is exactly right to do. I remember being very torn. Especially for a non-custodial male parent who doesn't normally have the baby, is not as familiar as Momma is ... he probably just panicked ... but he did do the right thing.
Yes, he's probably spent some years ashamed of this, but you could free him (and your Son) by letting it go. Give him some credit for ultimately doing the right thing ... ... in spite of CPS being there to take someone to jail ...
Teaching your Son how to forgive his Father, also teaches him how to get his own children to forgive him.
No parent is perfect. We all need forgiveness for something or another.
How did he pick me? I came home one Friday after visiting planned parenthood, and told my friend with benefits, and roommate that I was pregnant. I was 24 years old.
I woke the next morning, headed for a cup of coffee, and saw his mother and sisters sitting in the living room. Within less than 24 hrs he had told everybody I was pregnant! I didn't have time to even think about anything.
Now his mother has me cornered, talking bout how we need to get married. We were good friends and roommates. We had never said we loved each other or made any plans to get married. We each did or own thing. I was still going to the after party. Now, I gotta think about getting married with his family around. I was trapped. His mother just assumed we wanted to get married. She arranged for a small wedding at her house the following weekend.
There were a lot of things I should have noticed, except I never planned to marry him. Heck, I didn't even notice he had a drug problem.
Im more angry because he told everybody I was pregnant before I could decide what I wanted to do. And why the heck would you marry someone when you know you have a drug problem.
When I told my current husband this, he said, you know that was a shotgun weeding No I didn't no that. But when I think about it, I have to say, yes it was. His Mother took care of everything and I married a friend and stranger.
We were such good friends. Never ment to be married. I didn't even know he had a big mouth and would tell everybody I was pregnant before talking to me.
If anything I should not have let him take my son at all, knowing he was a drug addict. I only let him take him because I knew he would leave him with his mother. His mother, who wanted my son. She was always complaining to me that she was tired of this or that and she was going to keep her grandson if such and such didn't Change. After having enough of her and her son I finally cursed her out and she settled down.
When my son graduated high school the first place he went was to visit his father. I never talked negatively about his father. What could I say? His father is a drug addict? I would not be able to answer any questions he might have asked. I didn't tell him why we divorced, because he was a drug addict, until he was old enough to understand - 16 yrs old.
After I divorced him, I didn't date for at least 2 Yrs. I was afraid for myself. If I picked him I didn't trust myself to pick another man. I was a single parent for 5 years before meeting my current spouse.
He has MS now, and in a wheelchair.
Because you have such great compassion for others, I won't say how I'm waiting for him to leave this world.
I don't remember speaking at all while his mother was planning my life. Don't remember saying anything.
Offer me one million dollars and I still wont remember our wedding date.
He chose to not visit his son. He did pay child support, court ordered from his pay check, until his son graduated high school.
The kicker is I lived with a drug addict, not knowing he was a drug addict.
I think I lived in a drug house.
That's why I want to help this young lady. I think this man is using her house to deal drugs from, and she's afraid. When I look at her I see myself at her age.